April, Update and Grief.

Time goes so quick and it's been so long since I last wrote a blog post that I am lost on what to write...

Life feels repetitive and almost like I am in a loop. Each day feels the same and it is getting harder each time. When I reflect on the past year, I have absolutely no clue how I have got through it. It's been a challenge, especially for my mental health. Also, university work has taken up so much of my life so I haven't had as much time as I would like to sit down and just ramble on my blog. It's all been very tough but I know I am not the only one. 

I wanted to write this post to talk about something that has really hit me hard and what I have been struggling to come to terms with and process. On the 8th of March 2021, my beautiful great-nanny pix passed away after years of suffering from Alzheimers. My heart is broken and I am still trying to heal but it's been so difficult I can't even begin to explain. She was a fighter and I will always admire her for that.

Then, on the 26th of March, I said my final goodbyes. I've never been to a funeral so I didn't know what to expect, although it was so painful to go through, it was comforting to know that she is in heaven now and she is my guardian angel. 

Grief is hard, but I know my nan is guiding me. I have so many memories that I will cherish forever and I hope she is proud of me. I just feel so honoured and privileged that I got to call her my nanny pix. She was an incredible woman and so beautiful inside and out. 

I love you Nan. 

xxxx












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